| thirty-nine & forty // fifty-two |

When you realize that you were a total mom brain and forgot to post the previous week’s portrait you post two weeks like “who cares

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This week we had grand plans, a full dance card really, yet Friday around 4pm we got a call from Harper’s daycare that she had a fever of 100.2. I picked her up and we got this little one cuddled for a night of movies and TLC. Sadly she woke up Saturday feeling like the surface of the sun and had to make a quick trip to urgent care. It was up to 102.5 despite the morning dose of baby Tylenol and she had strep throat, or toncilitis, the doctor felt Harper felt worse enough without shoving a swab down her throat!

I felt like we fought the good fight getting her fever to break, as I write this we just dipped below 100 but still too warm for comfort. We stayed locked up in the playroom watching Frozen and Star Wars over and over again. The family took a 3 hour nap and we are the better for it!

today we celebrated the break by putting on normal clothes, getting yummy smoothies and bouncing around the house. Hoping tomorrow brings a clean bill of health for my baby.

// newest obsession //

Star Wars. Sadly she is on the dark-side and walks around doing Darth Vader impressions while singing the song of the Empire.

// worst new habit //

Screaming, for no reason other than pure joy. It’s my favorite in the checkout line at Whole Foods or while driving home. Anyone know ways to break this terribly terrifying habit?!

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Two weekends ago we headed to the most beautiful nursery, hit up a local brewery that had a Fall petting zoo, and wandered around Italian Village which has quickly become on of our favorite ‘hoods.

The family costume wasn’t, and still isn’t really, ready for it debuet so we got Harper a Day of the Dead headband and called it a day! While out she made friends with an eager puppy, mommy bought some new plant babies and daddy got another dose of warm apple cider. It was one of those perfect Fall days.




| thirty-eight // fifty-two |

Today felt truly Fall so we decided it was the perfect day to hit up the farm to do some picking, drink some cider (man a decision I regret as it does not farewell for the toddler diaper), and have some positivity before tonight’s debate. 

We started off searching for the perfect pumpkin but left with five! Harper was not in love with walking over vines. After seeing an enticing menu filled with kettle corn, cider, funnel cakes and more, we decided it was lunch time! Harper devoured half of Dad’s funnel cake, chugged some cider and then hugged a bag of kettle corn like it was going to float away. 

We ended with a little apple picking so we could come home and bake. Out baby cousin ended up at our house so we scratched that so we could go for a long walk and watch Frozen…priorities. Another great day, and another day that I am thankful for my family.

It amazing how becoming a parent can change your idea of a rocking weekend.

// grossest moment //

You can’t be a parent and admit you never talk about poop. My husband and I have talked about how becoming a parent means talking about someone else’s poop more than you could ever imagine. This week we had three occasions that ended with loads of laundry, emergency showers and hysterical conversations with Harper about pooping and how to tell mommy when she needs to go. 

Potty training may be the death of me…

// best moment //

Last night we had my brother-in-law’s dirty thirty party and headed over for a great bonfire. Harper was amazing, loved seeing the moon (her new new favorite) and seeing some friends and family. On a side note whenHarper is tired she get very lovey-dovey, last night was no exception. 

At one point in the night my little gem leaned in and kissed me, said “thank you mommy,” and then followed up with an Eskimo kiss for the ages. 
I am amazed by her everyday and am proud to be her mother. I hope she remains strong-willed and confident throughout her life. Being a woman can be a tough job, but she is up for the job.

| thirty-seven // fifty-two |

The theme of the past few weeks seem to follow a similar trend of “oh my gosh who is this toddler and what have you done with my seeet baby?!” This week proves that this little cycle can happen all in one day! 

After a long week of work and rain I could wait to get the little one out for some family time, especially after the last two weekends being a bit of a whirlwind…don’t worry this weekend was just as nuts. Saturday’s plans fell through due to some clashing of the parental minds on what makes a fun Saturday so we decided (together) Sunday would be funday. The Columbus Flea was happening so we decided to hit that up early so we could be home to play with Auntie and the new baby. 

The flea was a dream, a dream filled with leather goods I had to pass because we really want a house, needs I didn’t drink because it wasn’t noon and yummy popsicles that Harper and I devoured! We even picked some sunflowers and went exploring through Italian Village. You are probably thinking what a picture perfect day…it was!

We got home to a pot of yummy soup, stacks of cookies and the cutest tooting baby this side of the Mississippi. I even got Harper to hold the baby, read to her and we even laid for a nap. Guys this all happens by 5pm, I think I high-fives my reflection for winning the whole mom thing. Then she woke…

25 minutes of piercing shrieks, a few smacks at my head, buckets of tears and a confused mommy with no idea how to calm my baby. Daddy was able to do the trick and I left defeated and shell shocked to head to the grocery to make an offering for the beast known as Harper.

It’s amazing how you can go from feeling like a winner to feeling like the mold under the bath mat. Joys of parenting!

// big steps //

Harper starts day-care tomorrow! Eek! And the behavior from the past few weeks has left me both relieved and nervous! I think the structure and social aspect will be great. I truly think it’s what she craves, but part of me wonders what it will do to her when she gets into her moods. Time will tell…

// bad baby //

Hitting, it’s started. Like biting it is geared all towards me. Ugh. Tips encouraged…and wine…

| thirty-six // fifty-two |

Because we went to the zoo…again…but we have found that this really is our family’s happy place since moving. Saturday took a turn that left Daddy’s head spinning between a nasty DMV visit and ended with a crashed iPhone, we needed a day to turn things around!

Going back to work has been great, I am definitely a mom that loves working and being a mother, but I won’t lie that I miss having each of my days dedicated to this little jumping bean. Unfortunately Daddy is getting stuck with the toddler tantrums and keeping the dog and baby separated…any advice on that is more than welcomed! Dad goes back to work in two weeks and then we will begin daycare for the first time. I am excited and nervous about what will happen to our independent, yet delicate, little girl after she attends. I know how tough other little kids can be, but know it’s time to start. Sigh, parenthood man.

// happiest moment //

Harper looked at me while we were lying in bed together, wrapped her hands around my neck, stroked the back of my head and said “I love you mommy.” 

I would be lying if I said there was not a surge of emotions, a stream of tears and then giggles from my confused daughter who said, “mommy’ funny!” This was a moment I will treasure forever and ever.

// most embarrassed mamma moment //

It didn’t happen in public but it still was not a proud mama moment nonetheless. Harper was sitting on the potty, upset I would not give her another 12 jelly beans, when she grabbed both sides of my head shaking and screamed red-faced “MORE JELLYBEAAAANNNSSSS!” 

And there is that terrible two year old. If the two moment above didn’t describe the balance of toddlerhood I am not sure what does!

| thirty-five // fifty-two |

Because we had big plans for the weekend but then mama got hit with a hell of a cold, think swimming in a sea of tissues and mucinex cold, so we stayed home. We helped Grandma bake cookies using her childhood cookbook, went for a walk along the water and mom caught up on her Harry Potter.

This week was also my first full week back to work, and Harper is definitely adjusting to the new routine and having Dad as the primary caregiver. Mama is the rule-maker so the “routine” has been a bit deconstructed. She is also testing her two year old limits which is testing Dad’s patience, this was not helped by being stuck in bed with the death cold! 

We had a big weekend planned, exploring a music festival in a new hood, getting to an apple orchard and a flea market for Sunday. While it’s always nice to take a step back and relax this girl seems to thrive in the hustle and bustle. Luckily we all survived, and we are finding staying at Grandma’s is giving us special access to her year’s of experience with an excited two year old!

Monday starts a new week and we are already planning next week’s adventures!

// favorite new TV show //

Sid the Science Kid has entered our morning PBS rotation and Harper is hooked! Not sure my feelings yet, but I am going to say I kinda felt like we needed some new shows! Also am I the only parent who doesn’t get Paw Patrol?! We tried to watch it this weekend and Harper was not a fan…

// the struggle known as potty training //

Before we were Ohio bound Harper was on the panty track! She had dry diapers between changes and was asking to use the potty…fast-forward three weeks and we are back to potty fights and full diapers. I hate to say it but she even pooped in the tub about a week ago!

Am I a potty-training failure? I feel like the inconsistency from Daddy is killing this girl’s potty game but not sure how to start again!! H-E-L-P

| thirty-four // fifty-two |

Because we have lived in Columbus barely three weeks and this is our second weekend at the Zoo! After a surprise day of torrential rain we decided we wanted to spend a day celebrating our anniversary with our little family unit, and since our first trip (last weekend) this little nugget has been asking non-stop to see the animals. 

Unfortunately this trip was overshadowed by someone’s 3am wake-up call that was news to me, but we made the most of it! I right this right now curled up in the tub, soaking in lavender bubbles getting ready to drift off into dream world since tomorrow marks our first full week with our new “routine.” I remember my early twenties and routine sounding like a four letter word, but know I realize how much little ones crave this, and parents really need it for sanity…the struggle is real people! Hopefully October will end the craziness for a bit and we can focus in on getting settled and moving into our new lives.

PS…does the last photo have the best photo bomb or what?!

// favorite parent //

If a picture is worth a thousand words than its one word on repeat, “daddy!” It’s  alright though I still feel pretty selfish about the breastfeeding months being predominantly mommy.

// new habit //

Going around the room and asking people to honk there nose, sing a song or to karate chop the air. Imagine sitting in a room and “mommy sing,” “daddy sing,” and so on and so forth. If you try to ignore don’t worry a high pitch scream brings you back to her reality! 

| thirty-three // fifty-two |

Last week kind of ran away from us, really it was a nice thing. There was a million things happening and I completely forgot to post our weekly portraits, it was amazing how much happened in a 7 days span.

First…we had mom land a job, then we celebrated the babe’s birthday where my sister announced she was in labor, the next day a new baby girl named Madison graced us with her presence, we spent a WHOLE day at the zoo, and we ended the week with Harper spending time with Grandma’s Mommy and the rest of our extended family. 

Yes, all that happened in just 7 days!! Now I am back on the grind, sitting in a hotel room and reminiscing about our magical time together.

| thirty-two // fifty-two |

The first four days of Ohio living and we have been loving Ohio. It’s amazing how a move and change can just feel so right! We packed a lot into our first weekend since we found out this mama will be employed sooner than expected (yay!). 

Two things from our reunion were clear; one was that Harper has changed and developed so much in the week, and second was someone is in LOVE with grandma and poppa! Between all the ice cream, the dog, the multiple trips for Mexican, and the constant shower of love and affection it’s easy to see why she has enjoyed it. These last four days have been a whirlwind of unpacking, reorganizing, adventures and reconnecting. 

We did notice a new separation fear, for the first two days someone had to nap with her, almost sleep with her, or she would be manic. We are slowly phasing out of that, re-introducing potty training, and beginning to plan for baby cousin and  2nd birthdays!

// favorite past-time //

Feeding the dog from her high chair has become Harper’s favorite thing to do during mealtime. She claps, says yay, and the dog is happy. They have been in a bit of a power struggle the past week and we are hoping this new give and take relationship will help with that! Don’t bite the hand that feeds, literally!

// favorite new toy //

Harper got her birthday tricycle a few days early and even though she is about 6″ too short to petal she is in love with her new bike. She scoots it down the driveway, rings the bell and asks to sit in it. I must admit it’s a pretty sweet ride.

| mama musing // wallpaper |

// left to right //

1. decoist 2. 100 Layer Cakelet 

// left to right //

1. little hands illustration 2. chanel bags and cigarette drags 3. decoist 4. domino

Growing up I remember always being excited when we would move because my mom would take my sister and I to go pick out our very own wallpaper for our rooms. We were children of the eighties, sue me! Lately I have been falling back in love with beautifully designed wallpaper, with a modern twist of course.

Since our little trip to the shore and seeing the breathtaking shibori inspired restaurant wall I have been pinning my heart out to get inspiration for our soon (hopefully) forever home!

Check out more of my interior obsessions here

| thirty-one // fifty-two |

On Tuesday we spent out last day together as a family before shipping Harper off to her grandma’s for a week while we finished packing. We spent that last day with my husband’s family honoring the memory of his mom-mom and pop-pop. We gathered their ashes in a little tote bag and headed to the bay where they had spent many happy summers. We visited all their favorite spots, said a few prayers and then had a toast and ate some ice cream cake. 

It was a very emotional day for my husband who had been incredibly close with his grandparents and saw them as his parental figures. It was one of those days in your marriage you feel such strong empathy for this person you love, and feel so amazed to share an amazing connection with another human being. It was a beautiful last day, and such a great good-bye to this part of the country that has been such a huge part of my husband’s life. 

In just three days we will be reunited with our little one, and begin our new chapter in the mid-west. Together as a family!

// newest love //

Grandma is a hit! I am amazed by how quickly Harper has taken to my mother. As my dear friend said, “who wouldn’t love your mom!” Honestly, I was a little worried since I have never spent a day, let alone five, away from my little one. We had one FaceTime full of tears, but everything else has been “my grandma” and it makes me so proud of our little brave girl!

// most adorable //

My mom has a piano and was excited to show Harper. Needless to say it has been a hit!