Today is New Year’s Eve, a day to look back on the past year and look forward to the coming year. 2015 is nearing an end, and I must say I have mixed feelings about the whole ordeal. Last year was an amazing year for our family, but it was also one of the hardest years I have encountered. Between childcare, work, finances, and health there have been so many obstacles that have challenged us personally and in our relationship. Now we are looking forward to 2016! Tonight we are going to go back to a tradition we started when we first started dating; vegetarian reubens and marathon the Twilight Zone while we let a bedazzled toddler run around the apartment.
We are going to make the most of this next year, shake off the cobwebs of the bad, embrace the good and just plan to move forward! While finding a way to do this I was inspire by this post by Mothermag to sit down and look at your past year. To not focus on just the good,or bad, but the year as a whole. The biggest thing that I am looking forward to is more time with this little nugget. Everyday my husband and I look at each other and are amazed we created such an adorable and intelligent life form. I mean…how cute is she?!
// What 2015 accomplishments am I most proud of //
I am most proud of creating this blog. It is silly because right now it is really in it’s infancy. It’s something I always wanted to do, but kept telling myself I didn’t have the time. I was getting frustrated by feeling I didn’t have opportunities to stretch my creativity, but not doing anything about it. Today I am proud that I stopped making excuses and created an outlet for myself!
// In which areas did I struggle most in 2015 //
Over this past year I have really struggled with trusting myself. I have had so much doubt in what I am doing, where I am going professionally and the feelings in my relationships changing since baby. I know that these are all problems in my head, I really want to step outside of myself and pat myself on the back for what I have accomplished, not what I haven’t.
// What are some things I’ve learned to accept about myself this year //
Since having Harper I have, as I assume most parents do, a realization about life. I have found what’s important, and realized what isn’t. That is not to say there are not times that I get caught up in what I am going to wear, what people will think or how my future will unfold. I guess what I have accepted is that life happens and I need to just roll with it and not try to control it to make it what I think it ‘should’ be.
// What am I most grateful for in 2015 //
My family. Plain and simple I know, but they are what I value most in this world.
What things do I want to leave behind in 2015?
I want to leave behind my insecurities. I want to leave behind excuses and fears. These are what I use to keep myself from trying new things, and potentially failing. There are so many goals I have for the next year, and I don’t want to get in my own way anymore.
// Which things do I want to take with me into 2016 //
I want to take my new found fearlessness. My confidence in putting myself out there. Those are the traits I hope Harper will take on as she continues to grow and develop. I want to show her a strong woman, so she can herself turn into one.
Happy New Years from our family to yours!
Doe & Fawn